Okay...I'm not sure what type of "dreams" this is talking about. It could be dreams as in sleeping dreams, or dreams as in goals. I'm gonna write a letter to my goal-type-of-dreams.
But real quick, I had a hilarioius dream last night, but I woke up scared for some reason. It was at my house and we had a TON of people over for something....we were all decorating our house together and having cider and stuff. It was epic...UNTIL! Phillip came out of my room, holding my iguana. And background thing....my iguana is really a butt. So mean. Anyways, I said, "Phillip! Why do you get Poopsy out?" He said, "Cause...." Then he dropped him and was all trying to catch him and Poopsy kept turning around and hissing at Philly. It was really freaking him out so he just let him run away.
So, I took over on trying to catch my iguana. It was running through the kitchen so I was spriting after it and then I looked and saw that it's tail was gone. (Iguana's lose their tail and it hurts them really bad. They can grow them back but it's normally deformed and it gets infected a lot.) SO! I freaked out and said, "Philly! Where is his tail?" And he said, "Uhmm....last time I saw it, it was in your room." Sure enough, I went in my room and his tail was laying on my floor still moving and I freaked out.
Isn't that disturbing but funny? I woke up though and thought that my iguana was gone but there he was sleeping under his log, so I was good. :)
Okay here we go:
Dear Dreams,
I don't really know what you are because I don't have many dreams. I kinda think of my future as all in God's hands. But! I do want to become a nurse, and eventually find the perfect man and get married and have children. The latter is my ultimate dream. Career is only if I end up being single or if my husband needs help with finances. But I want to be at home and raise my kids and homeschool them and teach them in the way they should go. I don't know if that is God's plan for me though. So! Dreams, I need you to listen....GOD is the one who knows where I will be and where I should go. So, you can't get in the way and distract me from what God wants. Allow me to follow God and not base my actions off of you. You feel me?
God's plan for me is better than any plan I could ever even dream up. There will be unexpected twists and turns that I have no control over. It might throw you for a loop, so be ready for that.
You might be a fraud. Have you ever thought of that? You may be a fake thing in my head that will never come to pass, and then you will be unimportant and forever forgotten. Poor, sad little dream. Maybe you should just go away and leave me to following Christ. I want what HE wants.
Your owner,
Becca
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Monday, December 6, 2010
Day six: My future spouse
This is really neat! I mean, how many people think of really writing a letter to their future spouse. I actually think that I'm gonna write an actual real letter, and save it and give it to my husband. And I probably will write several over the years, so I'll save them all and put them in date order and give them to him when we are married. How amazingly special would that be. It's almost like keeping myself accountable by developing a sort of relationship and bond with the man I will spend the rest of my life with. Ya know? Or does that totally not make any sense at all?
Dear Future Spouse,
I love you, whoever you are. That sounds weird huh? Well I do.....or will. I will love you more than anyone else in this world. But let's both make sure that the Lord is always the number one idol in our life....actually the ONLY idol in our lives. He needs to be all that we strive to become, during marriage AND before. If we run after Christ wholeheartedly, and make him number one in our lives, I know that our paths will cross and that we will know how perfect we are for each other. We will have peace knowing that it's right and God ordained.
God has stitched us perfectly for each other. Our stories mesh just right, our personalities are great together, we will love each other so much, and we will be willing to give our lives for each other. Crazy huh? It makes me happy to know that I will spend the rest of my life with someone wonderful and uniquely fit just for me. God is so great isn't He?
I will tell you all my thoughts, fears, past, and dreams, and you will listen to me and know more about me than anyone ever has. Lord willing you will think I'm the most perfect human being. I will tell you "You're crazy and deceived," if you say that, but really, those words will mean so much to me. I may not tell you so, but really, it will make me feel so special. You will be there for me when I need someone to cry to, laugh with, talk to, or when I just need to feel loved. You won't be perfect, but I will still love you when you aren't acting ideal. :)
I will be the one you can always come to, and I will love you with all my heart and with everything I have in me. I won't let a day go by where I won't say the words, "I love you." I will try my hardest to be the wife that I am meant to be. I will serve you and support you in everything that you undertake. I will be there to encourage you when you succeed, and also when you fail. I will be a mother to our children and raise them in a way that will make you proud. Most importantly though, I will make sure that I'm following close on Christ's heels, and I will be the spiritual woman that I need to be.
Now, this doesn't just start with marriage. It starts NOW. I am preparing myself everyday for the commitment to you. I will stretch and push myself to be honoring and loving, and God fearing. I am waiting for you, and making sure to keep myself pure for you. I have made mistakes, but I know that God is forgiving and I know that you will also forgive me. I'm going to make it my goal to live my life with you and God in the front of my mind. That way, I will live with the future in mind...not just seeking what I want in the present. It will all be worth it in the end, and you will be all that I have ever dreamed of. I won't have regrets if I do this all right. It will only be for the better
I love you and I will until the day I die. When I say my vows to you on our wedding day, i will mean them with all my heart. Only death will keep me away from you. When I say, "I do," that's exactly what I mean. Sickness and health, to honor and cherish till death do we part.
Your future wife,
Becca
Dear Future Spouse,
I love you, whoever you are. That sounds weird huh? Well I do.....or will. I will love you more than anyone else in this world. But let's both make sure that the Lord is always the number one idol in our life....actually the ONLY idol in our lives. He needs to be all that we strive to become, during marriage AND before. If we run after Christ wholeheartedly, and make him number one in our lives, I know that our paths will cross and that we will know how perfect we are for each other. We will have peace knowing that it's right and God ordained.
God has stitched us perfectly for each other. Our stories mesh just right, our personalities are great together, we will love each other so much, and we will be willing to give our lives for each other. Crazy huh? It makes me happy to know that I will spend the rest of my life with someone wonderful and uniquely fit just for me. God is so great isn't He?
I will tell you all my thoughts, fears, past, and dreams, and you will listen to me and know more about me than anyone ever has. Lord willing you will think I'm the most perfect human being. I will tell you "You're crazy and deceived," if you say that, but really, those words will mean so much to me. I may not tell you so, but really, it will make me feel so special. You will be there for me when I need someone to cry to, laugh with, talk to, or when I just need to feel loved. You won't be perfect, but I will still love you when you aren't acting ideal. :)
I will be the one you can always come to, and I will love you with all my heart and with everything I have in me. I won't let a day go by where I won't say the words, "I love you." I will try my hardest to be the wife that I am meant to be. I will serve you and support you in everything that you undertake. I will be there to encourage you when you succeed, and also when you fail. I will be a mother to our children and raise them in a way that will make you proud. Most importantly though, I will make sure that I'm following close on Christ's heels, and I will be the spiritual woman that I need to be.
Now, this doesn't just start with marriage. It starts NOW. I am preparing myself everyday for the commitment to you. I will stretch and push myself to be honoring and loving, and God fearing. I am waiting for you, and making sure to keep myself pure for you. I have made mistakes, but I know that God is forgiving and I know that you will also forgive me. I'm going to make it my goal to live my life with you and God in the front of my mind. That way, I will live with the future in mind...not just seeking what I want in the present. It will all be worth it in the end, and you will be all that I have ever dreamed of. I won't have regrets if I do this all right. It will only be for the better
I love you and I will until the day I die. When I say my vows to you on our wedding day, i will mean them with all my heart. Only death will keep me away from you. When I say, "I do," that's exactly what I mean. Sickness and health, to honor and cherish till death do we part.
Your future wife,
Becca
Day Four: Sibs
Hey Ashley,
You are the greatest. You constantly make me laugh, and always know the perfect time to give me hug when I need it. I love how we can read each other's minds and translate for each other when Mom and Dad think we are talking a totally different language. You are such a wonderful friend and I can always count on you to stick up for me and be there when I need a shoulder to cry on. You are such a sweetheart and I look up to you. Your love for the Lord is something that I envy and everyday I try to be more and more like you in that way. You are inspiring!
Sorry for all the times that I haven't treated you like I should. Sometimes it's so easy to take you for granted and that's SUCH a big mistake. You are a blessing from Christ and I'm SO happy that Mom and Dad had a surprise child cause without you, I would be.....gosh! What WOULD I be? I would be socially messed up, and I would have NO fun whatsoever, and I would probably be a spoiled brat, but you got that instead. *wink* Just kidding Sissa. No, but for real, I would be so sad without you. God truly has it all planned out because you are the most perfect sibling I could ever have. The only thing I would change about you is.......I would want you to always do my chores and give me the money that you make. *laughs evily* No....actually that would be disfunctional, so nevermind. I wouldn't want you to do that cause that would leave you hanging out to dry. SO! Forget that I said that. *cries* I promise! I didn't mean it! LOL.
Anyways, thanks for everything you have done for me. I love you so much and thank the Lord for you ALL THE TIME. You are so precious! Thanks for all the laughs. You are truly hysterical and I love how we love to laugh around each other. We are gonna live to be old, and with good abs right? *nods* Yea-yah! I LOVE YOU ASHLEY!
Your big sis,
"Betty"
You are the greatest. You constantly make me laugh, and always know the perfect time to give me hug when I need it. I love how we can read each other's minds and translate for each other when Mom and Dad think we are talking a totally different language. You are such a wonderful friend and I can always count on you to stick up for me and be there when I need a shoulder to cry on. You are such a sweetheart and I look up to you. Your love for the Lord is something that I envy and everyday I try to be more and more like you in that way. You are inspiring!
Sorry for all the times that I haven't treated you like I should. Sometimes it's so easy to take you for granted and that's SUCH a big mistake. You are a blessing from Christ and I'm SO happy that Mom and Dad had a surprise child cause without you, I would be.....gosh! What WOULD I be? I would be socially messed up, and I would have NO fun whatsoever, and I would probably be a spoiled brat, but you got that instead. *wink* Just kidding Sissa. No, but for real, I would be so sad without you. God truly has it all planned out because you are the most perfect sibling I could ever have. The only thing I would change about you is.......I would want you to always do my chores and give me the money that you make. *laughs evily* No....actually that would be disfunctional, so nevermind. I wouldn't want you to do that cause that would leave you hanging out to dry. SO! Forget that I said that. *cries* I promise! I didn't mean it! LOL.
Anyways, thanks for everything you have done for me. I love you so much and thank the Lord for you ALL THE TIME. You are so precious! Thanks for all the laughs. You are truly hysterical and I love how we love to laugh around each other. We are gonna live to be old, and with good abs right? *nods* Yea-yah! I LOVE YOU ASHLEY!
Your big sis,
"Betty"
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Day Three: My parents
Okay, this one is for my two parents....
Dear Mom and Dad,
Thanks so much for raising me and showing me the ways of Christ. You have always been ready to push me to a higher level in all that I'm doing and always encourage me to do my very best. You both mean so much to me. I'm so thankful.
Mom, a lot has happened in the family, and you have always been so strong and there to talk. I know that we bump heads some, but we always make up easily and you always let me know that you love me. Sorry for all the times that I haven't been respectful or haven't been caring about your feelings. Thank you for never giving up on me and for being supportive of me and what I'm doing. You are the most incredible Mom and I love you very much! I will never forget what you have done and all that you have sacrificed for me. I appreciate you more than you could ever know.
Dad, I love you! I have always been a Daddy's girl huh? Well, I'm starting to stop that now as I grow older but I know I always have a Daddy in you. A lot has gone on and there has been a lot of pain, but I will love you forever and you will always be my Daddy. Thanks for teaching me all the things a girl normally doesn't know. How to fix things, move furniture properly, and how to deal with cars. If it wasn't for you, I would be a wimp. I love working with you and I know that won't change. I'm your "moving buddy" forever :) And I'm your "Becca-loody-sweet-patoody, fresh-and-fruity-your-my-cutey-with-a-big-round-funny-looking-chicken-red-booty," even if it's embarrassing at times. Lol.
You both are incredibly special and I thank God for you as parents and friends. I love you so much!
Love your daughter,
Becca
Dear Mom and Dad,
Thanks so much for raising me and showing me the ways of Christ. You have always been ready to push me to a higher level in all that I'm doing and always encourage me to do my very best. You both mean so much to me. I'm so thankful.
Mom, a lot has happened in the family, and you have always been so strong and there to talk. I know that we bump heads some, but we always make up easily and you always let me know that you love me. Sorry for all the times that I haven't been respectful or haven't been caring about your feelings. Thank you for never giving up on me and for being supportive of me and what I'm doing. You are the most incredible Mom and I love you very much! I will never forget what you have done and all that you have sacrificed for me. I appreciate you more than you could ever know.
Dad, I love you! I have always been a Daddy's girl huh? Well, I'm starting to stop that now as I grow older but I know I always have a Daddy in you. A lot has gone on and there has been a lot of pain, but I will love you forever and you will always be my Daddy. Thanks for teaching me all the things a girl normally doesn't know. How to fix things, move furniture properly, and how to deal with cars. If it wasn't for you, I would be a wimp. I love working with you and I know that won't change. I'm your "moving buddy" forever :) And I'm your "Becca-loody-sweet-patoody, fresh-and-fruity-your-my-cutey-with-a-big-round-funny-looking-chicken-red-booty," even if it's embarrassing at times. Lol.
You both are incredibly special and I thank God for you as parents and friends. I love you so much!
Love your daughter,
Becca
Day 2: My crush
Uhmm.....this is dumb. When I think of a crush....I think of being obsessed with someone that doesn't like you and you think they hung the moon, when really they didn't. *has hard time getting oxygen* You barely talk to them, if ever, and you get nervous when you talk to them, and you get all self conscious. *palms sweat* I think of a distance thing where you just like them for infatuation reasons. I do NOT have one of those!
NOW! I know that some people might not agree with me on this subject, and say "That's not what a crush is." And that's cool....it's just my opinion and everyone has their own opinion on it. SO! I'm not gonna do this one, because I don't have one! SO!
I used to have one though and it's so funny. There was this dude that I went to church when I was little. I was probably like seven or something, and he was way older than me. But yeah, I thought he was the one. Stupid seven year old me. But yeah, I barely ever talked to him and got so nervous around him. Weird. O.o
What's even more disturbing....I used to have a crush on Buster Baxter. Yes, Buster Baxter off of the Arthur show. How dumb is that? *can't stop laughing* That is sick! But yeah, that was when I was about 5 or 6. Yes, I was a twisted child.
So, I shall precede to write a short little note to Buster K?
Dear Buster,
You are a gorgeous man! What a perfect......animal. I love you and wish that I could spend more time with you. I think about you and dream about you like EVERY NIGHT! Please remember me and maybe sometime you could drop by. Okay....okay bye.
Love forever and ever,
Becca your beautiful lover
NOW! I know that some people might not agree with me on this subject, and say "That's not what a crush is." And that's cool....it's just my opinion and everyone has their own opinion on it. SO! I'm not gonna do this one, because I don't have one! SO!
I used to have one though and it's so funny. There was this dude that I went to church when I was little. I was probably like seven or something, and he was way older than me. But yeah, I thought he was the one. Stupid seven year old me. But yeah, I barely ever talked to him and got so nervous around him. Weird. O.o
What's even more disturbing....I used to have a crush on Buster Baxter. Yes, Buster Baxter off of the Arthur show. How dumb is that? *can't stop laughing* That is sick! But yeah, that was when I was about 5 or 6. Yes, I was a twisted child.
So, I shall precede to write a short little note to Buster K?
Dear Buster,
You are a gorgeous man! What a perfect......animal. I love you and wish that I could spend more time with you. I think about you and dream about you like EVERY NIGHT! Please remember me and maybe sometime you could drop by. Okay....okay bye.
Love forever and ever,
Becca your beautiful lover
Friday, December 3, 2010
Day 1: My best friend
Okay, well this one is gonna be loooong because my best friend is incredible. No, it's not Ashley. I mean Ashley is super special and she's my amazing friend who lives with me and sees every side of me and knows TOO much about me. Shes like my best friend but in a sister way. And that's great, but it just doesn't count. I don't know what I would do without her cause she is such a great friend and I am the craziest around her and my most serious around her, and it's great to have someone so special live right under your own roof. BUT! My best friend is most definitely Brian.
Dear Brian,
Gosh, I don't even know where to start. *smiles* You have been the greatest friend. You have always been there for me and constantly have pointed me toward Christ. When we first met, I was going through some hard times and I was troubled in many ways, but you helped me through that and showed me Christ's unending love. You showed me that I need to be myself and not live to please others. You showed me that God is who I need to serve, and Him only. You have always been there for me when I need to vent out my problems and when I just need to laugh. You are such a good listener and always care about what's going on. With all the crap that has gone on in my family, not once have you ever said anything negative....when that's what would be the easiest to do. Instead, you point me to Christ and tell me that He has a plan and that I need to trust Him. Sometimes that would make me mad because I wanted you to get upset too, just so I could stir it around for a while and rehash it over and over to get it through my system. You always put a stop to that and just said something positive and reminded me that Christ knows and that somehow it will turn out good in the end, whether it's the way I planned or not.
When I'm down, you always can tell! It's freaky. Even if I try to hide it, you'll say, "Bec! What's wrong?" I will deny it but you never go for that. And when you know it, you always know the perfect thing to say to cheer me up and make me laugh. Some of my best memories are when both are laughing hysterically over the phone because of something we were saying.
I can totally be myself around you. It's totally cool. I never worry about how I look or act around you cause I want you to know the real Becca, and I know that you will still be friends with me if I'm not perfect all the time. Ya know? No make-up and sweatpants....who cares. It's such a great feeling to be okay with that.
I can tell you anything. You are always very open to hearing whatever I have to say. People say that guys have a hard time listening, but I'm just saying....you're the best listener that I have ever met! And that's including girls. Actually, I want to be as good of a listener as you are :)
Sometimes....no all the time....it's hard to live far away. But I thank the Lord for the opportunity to mature in that way. You still are always there just the same and I can always count on it.
I'm so thankful that the Lord brought you into my life. You truly are special to me and....whew! I'm getting teary!....you are there to laugh with, cry with, and ramble to, but most important: You are a Godly example and your faith is inspiring. You have no idea what an impact your life has made on mine. God is so good huh? I think so!
Love,
Bec
Dear Brian,
Gosh, I don't even know where to start. *smiles* You have been the greatest friend. You have always been there for me and constantly have pointed me toward Christ. When we first met, I was going through some hard times and I was troubled in many ways, but you helped me through that and showed me Christ's unending love. You showed me that I need to be myself and not live to please others. You showed me that God is who I need to serve, and Him only. You have always been there for me when I need to vent out my problems and when I just need to laugh. You are such a good listener and always care about what's going on. With all the crap that has gone on in my family, not once have you ever said anything negative....when that's what would be the easiest to do. Instead, you point me to Christ and tell me that He has a plan and that I need to trust Him. Sometimes that would make me mad because I wanted you to get upset too, just so I could stir it around for a while and rehash it over and over to get it through my system. You always put a stop to that and just said something positive and reminded me that Christ knows and that somehow it will turn out good in the end, whether it's the way I planned or not.
When I'm down, you always can tell! It's freaky. Even if I try to hide it, you'll say, "Bec! What's wrong?" I will deny it but you never go for that. And when you know it, you always know the perfect thing to say to cheer me up and make me laugh. Some of my best memories are when both are laughing hysterically over the phone because of something we were saying.
I can totally be myself around you. It's totally cool. I never worry about how I look or act around you cause I want you to know the real Becca, and I know that you will still be friends with me if I'm not perfect all the time. Ya know? No make-up and sweatpants....who cares. It's such a great feeling to be okay with that.
I can tell you anything. You are always very open to hearing whatever I have to say. People say that guys have a hard time listening, but I'm just saying....you're the best listener that I have ever met! And that's including girls. Actually, I want to be as good of a listener as you are :)
Sometimes....no all the time....it's hard to live far away. But I thank the Lord for the opportunity to mature in that way. You still are always there just the same and I can always count on it.
I'm so thankful that the Lord brought you into my life. You truly are special to me and....whew! I'm getting teary!....you are there to laugh with, cry with, and ramble to, but most important: You are a Godly example and your faith is inspiring. You have no idea what an impact your life has made on mine. God is so good huh? I think so!
Love,
Bec
*sing songy voice* This is RADICAL!
Okay, so here's the story. I looked at Kirstin's blog and saw this, and then freaked out because I wanted to try it! I'm so happy. I talked to her tonight and she didn't mind if a million people started copying her idea! *dances* Yea-yah! Thank you Kirsten....I LOVE YOU!
I have a question though, what do I do when a couple of these things apply to the same person? Cause I was reading through them and a certain person came up several times. Haha....I guess I'll just answer honestly!
Anyways, so with the list below....I will blog everyday....(or try to at least) and I will write a letter to them every day! Cool eh? Well, WARNING! All these will be long because I'm long winded and most of the time always have something else that I want to say. So...beware, cause they could get lengthy :)
Day 1- Your Best Friend
I have a question though, what do I do when a couple of these things apply to the same person? Cause I was reading through them and a certain person came up several times. Haha....I guess I'll just answer honestly!
Anyways, so with the list below....I will blog everyday....(or try to at least) and I will write a letter to them every day! Cool eh? Well, WARNING! All these will be long because I'm long winded and most of the time always have something else that I want to say. So...beware, cause they could get lengthy :)
Day 1- Your Best Friend
Day 2- Your crush
Day 3- Your parents
Day 4- Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5- Your Future Spouse
Day 6- A stranger
Day 7- Your dreams
Day 8- Your favorite internet friend
Day 9- Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10- Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to
Day 11- A deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12- The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13- Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14- Someone you've drifted away from
Day 15- The person you miss most
Day 16- Someone that's not in your state/country
Day 16- Someone that's not in your state/country
Day 17- Someone from your childhood
Day 18- The person that you wish you could be
Day 19- Someone that pesters your mind-good or bad
Day 20- The one that broke your heart hardest
Day 21- Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22- Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23- The person you last kissed
Day 24- The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25- The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26- The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27- The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28- Someone that changed your life
Day 29- The person that you want to tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30- Your reflection in the mirror
Apologies.....
Dudes! I'm sorry it has been an eternity since I blogged. I confess that I haven't even TRIED to make time for it. I will hopefully be posting a little more in the next couple weeks....finals are coming up so I will be doing school a lot but still, I'll be trying. After school is over, I will definitely post more. Kay?
Luvs......
Luvs......
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